its like....

Its kind of like I have been a bit of a blogging retard. like I somehow just assume it will update itself if i just think about it hard enough. its not working out as well as I hoped i have this thought, usually daily, like " oh, i should type out a quick entry"
and i have wonderful ideas, but then i open the page, and watch the cursor blink and think to my self.

who are you kidding. today is not a funny day.

are any?

or are all. depends on how you look at it.

I read 2 books off my list so far.

Eat.Pray.love. - thank you very much Travis. I enjoyed it alot. makes me want to eat alot of food in Italy like I did when I was there with Horan.

The time Travelers wife. Makes me wish i could go visit my 8 yr old self or something. but it did make me realize [ again, still, always] that it is good to be different from everyone else. if only by the way of useable fingers.

In other news, i think I am getting a 'membership' at the Talisman centre. a guest pass for one month.

I say this with Caution, but I am going to try to maximize its use. I am going to go alot. often, for long times, swimming, track running, high dive board jumping if I am feeling insane. and maybe in one month I won't feel like a swollen version of my former self as I do right now.

and maybe if the weather warms up, i won't feel the need to stuff my face full of thick heavy cheesey fatty food because I somehow think it makes me warm.

but today is not the day to change all that. i'll probably have to consume some chicken wings and beer. and convince myself that a dinner of 100% deep fried protien, is good for me.