the weather inside

sometimes the weather inside doesn't match whats really going on.

sometimes it doesn't even know what it wants.

today is a weird weather day.

outside, its sunny, and what looks to be very warm. the forcast called for 25 *C or something along those lines. I have trust in the weather man, i assume he is right, so lets say it is 25, or soon to be.

It doesn't look like its going to rain, rain is not in the forecast.

now the conflict.

if you were to ask me, right now, regardless of what i just told you of the weather, of what i know to be true... i would tell you that it looks cloudy and like its going to rain, and that probably a big thunderstorm is going to roll in.

"if I could make it rain today,
and wash away this sunny day down to the gutter,
i would,
just to get a change of pace..."

I dont know why, or where these feelings are coming from.

this weekend I am going camping. i am looking forward to it and i am looking forward to it being stinking hot and me getting a great tan. i wouldn't want it to rain at all, but somwhere inside, my internal weather detector is telling me that it is raining.

is this a warning? is something bad going to happen, is my future doomed for rain?
is it because my spy-dee senses [ as in spiderman] are trying to tell me something.
why is it hard for me to belive it is sunny right now. I can see its sunny. my eyes do not decieve me, but as i sit at my desk with my back to the window, I can't help but wonder if the baby ducks i saw in the pond, are scared of the rain that is falling on their home.....