i felt i had

Two whole weeks has passed and I have been all alone at work. there have been other people there yes, but my co-worker and the other half of the payroll department is gone. I was flying solo.

Solo, as in just under 2000 people were waiting for me to pay them, solo as in if i make a mistake I could have all those people at my desk wondering where their paycheck is
I put in some overtime, i made a few mistakes, but nothing so big that it couldn't be fixed later, and nothing so big that it effected everyones/anyones paycheck.

I paid people. correctly, with minimal errors.

I should get drunk and celebrate. But its only thursday and I still have tommorrow to get through. Maybe tommorrow i will be panic-y, that maybe i didnt do a good job THIS week, and maybe when she comes back on Monday i will be nervous that i am going to get dumped on for doing poorly, I am expecting a nothing, a hey how was your holiday, good and then a move back to work. and i am sure thats how it will go, but i can't help but worry slightly that i am missing something.

I learned alot however, not alot of new stuff, but more i learned a lot of what i had learned before and hadn't really realized I knew. I found out that i can do it alone, and maybe i am as smart as i like to think i am sometimes. I felt i had a chance to get to know some of the other ladies at work better, maybe cuz they came to visit more, to see how I was doing,

or maybe,

just maybe, its becasue everyone and their dog seems to know about the new addition to my life. The source of my thoughts and the filler of my time.
and the questions come from everywhere at all hours of the day

hows the love life. how the new man,

and how can I post without mentioning it?

without mentioning that he took me to the Calgary Tower for dinner, the revolving restuarant. the view on top of the world that is calgary. I had duck. I like duck, but i am pretty sure that no duck will ever compare to the duck i had in Korea, but it was still good duck. He said he could do better. I believe him.

the minutes and the hours are never as short as they are when we are together, and never as long when i am trying to plough through work, or an evening alone.

and speaking of time, Travis, " I'll be gone for only a month" but this feels like the longest month ever. why is time warping in so many directions? summer is flying by, but there is so much of it left. It will be months until the snow falls. but i feel rushed. for what or why, i have yet to determine.

I also feel annoyed that i never seem to make it to the gym, but at the same time I dont actually care that much cuz I dont really want to go. I think I am more just slightly annoyed that I paid for a 6 MONTH pass that is slipping away before my eyes.

can't I pause it? until the winter, when I will probably feel that weight of grossness and want to go more? right now i feel all light and fluffy and summery and who the hell wants to go to the gym when it is 35 stinking degrees outside?

who thought a that a 6 month gym pass in the summer was a good idea?

bah

but still soaring in the clouds