Preoccupied Socialist

i met some wonderful people last night

a mother/ daughter combo

i dont even know them, but from what i can tell they have been brought together, became closer, by tragedy. they talked of their son/brother. They talked of him in the past tense, they talked of him in the present and future tense, and they talked of eternal life. It was interesting to hear, how their lifes have changed, how what they believe is different, and how they have found peace in it all. everyone believes what they want to believe. I enjoyed they stories they told.

The daughter is gorgeous. I found myself staring at her, seeing more then i felt i should have, wondering if her husband knew just how lucky he is. She had a calmness about her i dont find in many people. I wish i could have talked to her more. The mother, seems to have had a fascinating life. Living everywhere from London to some small island of the coast of Portugal. Vancouver to Ontario From riches to poor. I dont know the story, but I heard clips, comments of being evicted from an apartment, and wondering how many dishes can be made of potatoes, potatoes are cheap. But she carried herself like she had all the money in the world, no cares, and a part of the calm her daughter showed. I saw a contradicting pain in her eyes. She was a beautiful person to have dinner with. Today is her birthday. I hope she has a fantastic day.
we talked of london. I told stoires of being there, and the squatters in houses. I said it was shitty for the landlord/owner, but great for the people living there. Live in an abandoned house long enough, and you get rights. The mother laughed and said. Oh we have a little socialist on our hands....

I have never been a political person. I hated social studies. But I laughed and felt.. Its hard to explain how I felt. I never thought of myself as any political term. I'm not offended, perhaps I am a socialist. Better then being a communist. I guess I am more blown away by the fact that i had an opinion strong enough to be labeled in a conversation. i've never cnsidered myself opinionated. always a nuetral party, but i am beginning to see that this is a slight bit of delusionment.

self realization 101. welcome

I am still completely preoccupied with , well, we'll say AMA. I find myself still completely enthralled. Ahhhh bliss… what a good feeling.